Grief

It was a hard week, the anniversary of my mothers death and my grandmothers birthday, and for some reason, it hit me this year, more than ever.   Part of it is that my sons don't have any family close by, and don't have any bonds with family, besides their sisters.   There aren't any grandparents to spend the weekend with, so that Tim and i could go on a date.     I am glad part of the family got together last year, it was an opportunity for them to see a connection.

But we are blessed with friends and i need to remember how blessed we are, God put so many in our path, that is family to us.  I can count on them for anything.  

Wow, melancholy day today.  

The boys are good, Nate is growing, leaps and bounds.  He is doing better in school, thanks to a wonderful case manager.   The Principal at OCHS finally called me about my email, complaining that the teachers aren't following his IEP.   He promised to stay on top of it.  (hold your breath).   Ben is now on preventative medication for the migraines.   He is averaging 3 a week.   He also broke his toe.  

Tim continues to teach and preach.  I continue to work, things are looking up after a rough month, between being sick and work stress and then Tim getting sick, i was done with December and January.

I am now crocheting as much as possible.  My goal is to raise money for Tim and i to do something for our 20th anniversary.   I have been told of several craft fairs, Lauren is going to tell me of ones she attends.  

I am also walking 3 miles 3-5 times a day.   I go and walk Mina.  I can do that in less than an hour.  It feels good.

I need to get into a shape i am happy with. It's not about losing weight, it is about feeling good.

Back to work...laundry, dinner, and oh, Ben has a meeting tonight about going on a mission trip.
Fun fun.

SKC